in december i started reading things and thinking with an open mind (for the first time in my life).
i'm still discovering things daily that irritate me about the wts.
i've been to about half a dozen meetings since march.
In my experience it has taken years but everyone is different. At least you are dealing with it head on b/c you don't want to suffer these feelings for the rest of your life by supressing them! I think it's great you are reading the material that you are b/c it is helping you cope with things. You are looking at it square in the face. Deal with it all upfront and then it will be over and you can truly live your life.
Take it from me, I supressed it for years which is why I am here now.
MMO
i accompanied my jw wife to one day (sunday) of the district convention this weekend.
for any who are interested, i offer these observations from the sunday afternoon session:.
the concluding talk was given by a gentleman by the name of steven lett, a member of the jw governing body.
Thank you for your observations, they are greatly appreciated!!
MMO
for those of you who have left the watchtower have you experienced greater happiness since leaving than when you were in.especially a feeling of all that pressure lifting of conforming to the tower that you didnt realize originally made you misrable and was blamed on satan.thats how ive feel these days since leaving.i feel more natural and mentally stable than when i was a conforming jw.. on the other hand have you noticed these days when i bump into my ex congregation associates they look quite unhappy and depressed.then again it could be because some of them dont know how to deal with me knowing that ive left watchtower land..
I am MUCH happier since I left, I wasn't happy at all when I was in.
It's so great not to have every evening of the week taken up by meetings, service or personal study. I can do whatever I want to do, my life isn't controlled by fear, I have true friends, I am allowed to have secular goals, I have freedom of speech, I am not the subject of cruel gossip or being stabbed in the back, I am allowed to use the internet, go to school, marry and be friends with whoever I want...I really could go on and on.
Leaving is one of the best things I have ever done. It was definately the smartest!!
MMO
my wife excitedly told me that she talked to the wife of an elder that just came back from.
the special training for elders in upper state new york and that the elders are being told .
to go back to their congregations and to get them ready for the great tribulation.. i said to her that is great news !!!!
What? The great tribulation is coming? Oh sh!t, I better get my act together!!!
MMO
miami ink is a show about tattooing, it airs on u.s. cable channel tlc.
the show highlights the work of the tattoo artists and tells the background of why a person gets a particular tattoo.. on last week's show a young lady wanted what she referred to as a "conscience" tattoo.
when i heard "conscience" my ears perked up.
No I didn't see that but would LOVE to!! I'm looking into that! Good for her!
MMO
show me that you love me.
show me that you know how little it is we all really know about love.
show me how to love you.
Hey girl, that WAS intense! What's going on?
I wish for you all the things you desire, and then some. You are a great person, I hope everyone in your life treats you that way!
MMO
i love my dad & mom so much.
they are just so involved with the religion and will not see any other point of few.
my son is with my parents spending his first week of summer vacation with them.
I'm so sorry for your pain babygirl! This situation truly sucks! At least your parents are still talking to you?
We are all here to support you!
Hugs,
MMO
page 291 in the revelation speculation book has the funniest picture i have ever seen in wt publications.
look at all the "bad guys" wearing headbands!
and one nice, but brainwashed, sister commented tonight that head bands remind her of people that wanted to "do their own thing".
What will they think of next?!
MMO
my cell is a razor from motorola.
verizon has some new phones available.
if you were to upgrade, what would you get?
I have a Blackberry World Edition. Love it!!
MMO
i went to an aa meeting tonight for the first time in a few weeks.
after about 6 weeks of attempting to control my drinking in a social way, i feel that it best to go the abstinence route as i wasn't really enjoying it.. anyway i got to thinking afterwards whether jw's are allowed to go to them?
i have heard how some elders disaprove of them because it's classed as a spriitual program.
I know my mom went at least a few times. That was when she was admitting she was an alcoholic. She didn't drink for a year or so. I don't think anyone in her cong. knew so I am not sure if they are allowed or not. Something tells me no b/c they should be relying on the elders, Jeh, and prayer instead.
MMO
